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My Last Post



I was looking through these files the other day. My husband and I had a consultation appointment with a doctor, who specializes in Speech-Language Pathology and Auditory Processing Disorders. The office asked us to bring any past evaluations and assessments that have been conducted on our son. As I sorted through all the paperwork, I came across a polaroid picture of Gabriel that was taken 5 years ago. He was 3 1/2 years old, attending his very first speech therapy session. There’s an obvious look of anxiety in his face. In the picture, you could see him tightly gripping someone’s hand … mine. I remember that day vividly. He was so scared.

Now, here we are. My son is almost 9. The road has been rough, and still, I wonder what is ahead for him and for us. My faith is shaken sometimes, as I share the same anxiety my son felt that day 5 years ago.

This doctor that my husband and I met was recommended to us by some friends, who have been on a similar path with their youngest son. At the end of the appointment, we scheduled Gabriel’s evaluation in June.

Perhaps we’ll get a real diagnosis. Or perhaps the doctor cannot pinpoint exactly what it is.
Perhaps our path will be clearer. Or perhaps it will become more muddled with decisions to be made.
Perhaps we’ll get our questions answered. Or perhaps we’ll find ourselves asking new ones.

I am thankful for the opportunity to have this evaluation done, but I realize that I can’t put my hope in it, its results, or the doctor who will conduct it. No matter the outcome of this evaluation, it is The Lord who will continue to lead us as He has been faithfully doing these past 5 years.

When I began writing here, I never could have imagined this is where it would take me. I want to extend my deepest thanks to you for reading what I have shared here about my journey. Thank you for encouraging me. Thank you for weeping with me. Thank you for praying for me and for my family.

But, I believe it is time. It is time to close this chapter. To look with eager anticipation at the road ahead … though it be rough, God is good. God is most definitely good.

26 thoughts on “My Last Post”

    1. Thank you always for your timely encouragement! I have enjoyed getting to know you and sharing in the joy that we have in knowing the Lord Jesus. Many, many blessings to you, sister!

  1. I will miss you! I have really enjoyed your blog, thank you for all the wonderful posts you have made. Blessings to you!

  2. Awww…. I understand there are seasons in our lives. Perhaps the Lord will allow another such season to come around again someday, because you with your humility, love and spiritual understanding and applications have been such a blessing. May the Lord bless and keep you and your family. ((hugs))

    1. If I could hand out awards for this blog, you would receive the one for Top Commenter! What a pleasure it has been to fellowship with you and share with each other what God has been teaching us through His Word. I thank God for you, for spurring me on in my walk with Him. Blessings to you, sister. We will meet again.

  3. Your blog is among a few that I actually look for. I truly felt our hearts connect… I know it’s the Spirit within us. Please know how grateful I am for you and your heart toward the Lord. You have inspired me and moved me forward on some days. I appreciate your desire to follow the Lord’s lead and respect your for it. In the Lord relationships are never lost. Until we meet in heaven, know I will pray for you as the Spirit leads! Many many many blessings your way, sister!!!!

    1. Oh, Heidi, you truly have been an encouragement to me in this journey. Many times when I have visited your blog, it was exactly what God wanted me to meditate on to calm my anxious heart. God bless you. We will meet each other again, sister!

      1. If you like feel free to sign up via email. I don’t post very often these days and won’t clog up your email 🙂 You have been a HUGE blessing to me!!!!

  4. Oh, “say it ain’t so!” Though I’ve never met you,I would like to! Your place will be empty at the blog table.. At the same time, God is leading you. “It is the Lord,” how can we disagree? You’ve been a blessing to me; you will be a blessing to others. God bless you as you enter a new phase of service to Him. Vaya con DIos!

  5. God is good; He cannot be anything other than good and He will work ALL things out for your good. The Lord bless you and keep you.

  6. Best wishes to you and your family. As you have found, writing — as in journalling — is therapeutic. I’d encourage you: don’t give that part up. Keep a record of the journey as you go. And feel free to come back & start again if you find that you really miss this contact. 🙂

    1. Yes, it definitely has been therapeutic. It really has helped me to slow down my thoughts and be more intentional in seeking to understand what was happening in light of God’s Word. Thank you for your visits here!

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