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I was looking through these files the other day. My husband and I had a consultation appointment with a doctor, who specializes in Speech-Language Pathology and Auditory Processing Disorders. The office asked us to bring any past evaluations and assessments that have been conducted on our son. As I sorted through all the paperwork, I came across a polaroid picture of Gabriel that was taken 5 years ago. He was 3 1/2 years old, attending his very first speech therapy session. There’s an obvious look of anxiety in his face. In the picture, you could see him tightly gripping someone’s hand … mine. I remember that day vividly. He was so scared.

Now, here we are. My son is almost 9. The road has been rough, and still, I wonder what is ahead for him and for us. My faith is shaken sometimes, as I share the same anxiety my son felt that day 5 years ago.

This doctor that my husband and I met was recommended to us by some friends, who have been on a similar path with their youngest son. At the end of the appointment, we scheduled Gabriel’s evaluation in June.

Perhaps we’ll get a real diagnosis. Or perhaps the doctor cannot pinpoint exactly what it is.
Perhaps our path will be clearer. Or perhaps it will become more muddled with decisions to be made.
Perhaps we’ll get our questions answered. Or perhaps we’ll find ourselves asking new ones.

I am thankful for the opportunity to have this evaluation done, but I realize that I can’t put my hope in it, its results, or the doctor who will conduct it. No matter the outcome of this evaluation, it is The Lord who will continue to lead us as He has been faithfully doing these past 5 years.

When I began writing here, I never could have imagined this is where it would take me. I want to extend my deepest thanks to you for reading what I have shared here about my journey. Thank you for encouraging me. Thank you for weeping with me. Thank you for praying for me and for my family.

But, I believe it is time. It is time to close this chapter. To look with eager anticipation at the road ahead … though it be rough, God is good. God is most definitely good.


My Visual and Kinesthetic Learner

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Gabriel is a visual and kinesthetic learner. You would think that I would use this important piece of information to help me in planning out school lessons. In the beginning of each school year, I always have this intention, selecting curriculum that is more hands-on and planning activities that I know he would love. But, life gets busy, and I soon realize that planning for a student like Gabriel takes a lot of time. So, I do what’s easy for me: I talk and make him do worksheets. Can you see where this is going?

I went to a meeting for homeschooling families of children with special needs, and they discussed this very topic. The speaker said that most children with special needs have their biggest weakness in auditory processing and their biggest strength in visual and hands-on learning. So why do we teach to their weakest sense, not their strengths? I answered this earlier … because it’s easy! Isn’t it easier to read the science lesson out loud than gathering all the materials needed for that fun experiment?

This week, one of our history lessons was about the life of King David. I quickly gathered a few items from the kids’ toy box: toy pliers with my elastic headband made to look like a sling, a small plastic ball, foam swords, and a construction paper crown. So I still lectured, but bringing out different items throughout the lesson definitely engaged Gabriel a lot more than just a straight read-through.

Even curriculum advertised as hands-on have some amount of lecturing and worksheets. I don’t think that a visual and kinesthetic learner has to avoid it. Otherwise, those weaknesses will continue to be weaknesses and a huge source of frustration for him.

(Photo source: Wikimedia Commons)